THE BATTLE WITH DEATH AND SUFFERING
For a long time I was afraid of death. Still am, but it’s different. I don’t want death and I wouldn’t wanna lose anyone in my life. With the passing of Crystal and my dad, my relationship with death changed. Actually, it had changed long before I lost Crystal. Losing her changed my relationship […]
How I found my soulmate
Her name was Heather and at the time, I thought she was the best thing ever! She introduced me to Madam Krystle. Not my wife, but my psychic bestie the last 25 years now. I remember the day that Heather took me to Krystles house. I can’t tell you what I had for dinner […]
Let’s go DEEP today… Grief or Gratitude? Which is OK?
While flipping through my “Teaching of Buddha” book today, I found these post-it notes Crystal left around the house on our 17th year anniversary. I was instantly filled with gratitude and joy for the time I was able to spend with my love. My heart filled with a gratitude that I could never put […]
When depression came knocking, I beat it’s ass!
My entire life I could never understand depression. I mean mentally, sure, I understood the concept. But it was only a surface understanding of something that was completely foreign to me. Kinda like describing sex. Do you remember what it was like before? Or after? You heard people talk about it, you understood it, […]
Being alone sucks…
Before streaming, before the internet, before CD’s, there was the time of radio. Even then, I carried imprints from my past and wounds for my future. In 1982 one song captured my heart. I had to know the depths of it. (yup I was 11, but a pisces moon growing up in the most […]
The Soulmate Contract… we’ve been lied to!
To give love, be loved and to demonstrate love is something we deeply enjoy. You’re reading this means we have a lot in common, so love must be in your soul. What you may not know, is that my love and I had a rocky start. We were on and off again for years […]
It really isn’t “fair” is it?
When my family and I were in Texas for Crystal’s medical treatments, every day was a challenge. The energy of the city, the massive amount of people, the anger, it was so much! Damn those mirrors always reflecting back to me! (other people) It would be easy to say that I’ve changed and relaxed […]
From Anger to Love
The jumps we make on the ladder of emotion are not always easy. In fact, sometimes they can feel impossible. In a single day, all of my beliefs and the way I saw the world changed. Anger faded. It happened about 5 years ago in a 3 day meditation. I’m going to give you the […]
Our Search for Happy and that moment of clarity
Ever feel like happiness is just out of reach? Let me share a tale about a man named Hector. He had a comfortable life, a loving partner, a rewarding job, and all the material comforts one could wish for. Yet, he wasn’t happy. Haunted by a nagging sense of dissatisfaction, Hector decided to embark […]