THE BATTLE WITH DEATH AND SUFFERING
For a long time I was afraid of death. Still am, but it’s different. I don’t want death and I wouldn’t wanna lose anyone in my life. With the passing of Crystal and my dad, my relationship with death changed. Actually, it had changed long before I lost Crystal. Losing her changed my relationship […]
The Green M&M’s
Over the decades I’ve been elated to help couples remember why they chose each other after the honeymoon period has melted away. Like an M&M held in the hands too long, the color has started to wash away. The sweat of the relationship’s fire is just too much. The more fire, the faster that […]
I made a lot of mistakes
Made a lot of mistakes in my life. The one I never made, was giving up on my love. We were far from perfect, but commitment meant something to us both and we understood the journey we were on. I see the busy in the world and know how important Ram Dass was for […]
Let’s go DEEP today… Grief or Gratitude? Which is OK?
While flipping through my “Teaching of Buddha” book today, I found these post-it notes Crystal left around the house on our 17th year anniversary. I was instantly filled with gratitude and joy for the time I was able to spend with my love. My heart filled with a gratitude that I could never put […]
Being alone sucks…
Before streaming, before the internet, before CD’s, there was the time of radio. Even then, I carried imprints from my past and wounds for my future. In 1982 one song captured my heart. I had to know the depths of it. (yup I was 11, but a pisces moon growing up in the most […]
It really isn’t “fair” is it?
When my family and I were in Texas for Crystal’s medical treatments, every day was a challenge. The energy of the city, the massive amount of people, the anger, it was so much! Damn those mirrors always reflecting back to me! (other people) It would be easy to say that I’ve changed and relaxed […]